I’ve tried to meditate on many occasions, but have only felt truly successful twice. Twice! Twice, in my entire life. I have a bad case of “monkey mind” — when I sit down and try to focus on the inner portions of myself, when I try to NOT think… I fail.
I’m all over the place. I’m reviewing my “to-do” list. I’m worried about the projects sitting on my desk. I think about what I need to do for a client, friend or family member. I feel guilty for not DOING something. Then I feel guilty for feeling guilty for taking a few moments to call my own and I start wondering why I am that way and I start trying to figure out what I need to do to NOT be that way. By the time I’ve tried to “still” myself for about 15 minutes, I’m disgusted and confused and feeling like this whole meditation and “quiet time” thing is just way beyond my abilities. Then I feel stupid. After all, who CAN’T just sit there? Who can’t follow the instructions, “Don’t do anything, just sit there!”?
*Raises Hand* I can’t.
I also know in the center of my soul that I really need to learn to meditate. I need to learn to “just be” — I need to find a way to conjure up a sense of peace and joy — a liquidity of being — and I need to do it regularly.
The one thing that I’ve found that seems to help? It’s a CD. Of course, I immediately ripped it to my iPod so I can have it anywhere in a scratch-free format.
I’m making a concerted effort to spend at least 30 minutes with this, being “still” and trying to slowly, but surely learn to tame my own “monkey mind” and, it’s working! My monkeys aren’t exactly tame yet, but they aren’t quite as vicious as they once were. Not quite as rabid. They are slowing a bit.
I don’t want to say it’s a miracle — that’s too strong a word — but it is amazingly impressive. For me, it’s pretty darn cool.
So, if you have your own case of “monkey mind” and you would like to find a quiet place where you can soothe your soul and get a bit of a reprieve from the constant hullaballoo, you may want to give it a try.
Personally I’ve purchased the Awakened Mind System 2.0 and the Theta Meditation System: Let Go of Stress, Renew Your Spirit, Gain Insight, and Intuition… but there is quite a selection of this type of relaxation, sleep, creativity, etc “systems” and CDs. You may want to browse them all.
I hope you find it as useful as I have.